Time passes by too fast when you are angry

My dearest sweetest boy. Another year passes by and I can’t hold you and see you as you grow a year older.

I hope you had a great birthday celebration, I hope you were reminded of all your strengths, I hope it left you thinking about the unlimited potential of all that you can be.

I know you and your sister always challenge me back confused why I keep trying to see you.

It’s a great question … I know in the beginning is part of me wanted to continue feeling joy and happiness like any father/parent does when surrounded by his children. We spent a good solid 10 years being part of each other’s lives, not easy to just drop it…especially if they were filled with joy, laughter and memories.

That is my selfish desire and you don’t owe me that or anything. I know I owe you everything.

So I think back always to your questions, “why bother..?”

I do it for you, I want to make sure you are setup for the future, for success. That means granting you financial support, emotional support and advice different perspective of advice for you to draw from and make your own decisions. Sharing my learnings and setting you up for an independent and informed free life.

After it, that’s why Allah created families and parents. You are but a child of god to be ushered into independence and adulthood by your birth parents.

I wish you a happy birthday and miss you every day.

Seeing how much you have changed and just the physical height excites me to want to know how you are with school and how are your social relationships in life and what are your aspirations.

I leave you with one advice…let go of the anger. It eats at your soul and you are ultimately the biggest loser in life.

I will always remember you as my sweet kind and soft spoken and sensitive boy