Today’s the day I give up.
As we come into the 6th year of my attempts to re-initiate contact through the courts I have come to realise there is no use.
I am talking a different language to your mother and feels like I am in a battle I don’t want to be in and your mothers anxiety kicks in so high that you are placed as shields.
The premise was simple, since we cannot communicate on a logical sense the laws of the land that protect you are what the court was supposed to achieve. Give you the right to have contact with both your parents.
We both (your mum and Dad) love you so much that we want to help you navigate life and make sure you are not alone.
I give up using the courts and will just wait.
I give up trying to communicate my wants and needs through your mother and courts because it’s like we are talking a different language.
Lack of communication is the real problem.
But I will never give up hope. I will never give up faith.
But this day hurts …. I tried calling your mother and on this day it is more obvious than ever that the last 6 years was wasted with no sense of responsibility.
I am not writing this to blame your mother on anything. I just want this to be noted and let you know that I will always be here for you and this method of courts has not helped. I will look for other ways.
I leave with one advice. Never lie. Trust in god. And don’t be fooled by stories without facts.
Dear Kids ! 